im lost
but i will find my way out


List your 2008 favorite....
Pair of Shoes


hiding the truth is the same as lying
now, exactly why did you lie to me?
did you think i'd stop being friends with you?
did you care about my feelings or were you just trying to be sneaky?
did you think the truth wouldn't have come out?
either way, this whole thing is childish
no matter what decision WE make regarding this matter
i seriously
from the bottom of my heart
forgive you


is it stupid for me to sometimes wish i had the heart of an asshole? i mean, they seem to find it easy not to care about other peoples feelings. so why should i? why do i have to be the girl who tries her best  to make everyone happy, especially the people she loves the most? why does it feel  as if i ask for too much when majority of the time i don't ask for enough.Although I like material things I only demand one specific thing. Time. Life is not about increasing it's speed or rushing through things.I am more than willing to work with those who do not think they have time to give. i was once a girl who worked her life away. but one day recently, i realized that if i worked too much, i wouldn't be able to live my life. i wouldn't be able to enjoy the better things in life such as  a relationship, something i always mention on my list of desires. so what did i do? i resigned from one of my three jobs for more time. but, as we all know, things do not always go as planned. its like having the perfect rose but no one to bless with it. but instead of a rose, i have my heart to give. Jason Reynolds, last Thursdays feature at Mocha Hut, said "it is our imperfections that turns into blessings". well, I'm
 still waiting on that blessing. be it. I wish i could read your mind so i could know what you're thinking when we kiss, when we talk, when we hug, and when we make love.  i refuse to lower my standards but i am willing to adjust them for you. i will work around your schedule just as long as you promise to treat me how i deserve to be treated. at this point in time, i am confused. how can i be happy and sad at the same time? how can i stop the wind from blowing in the wrong direction? My good friend Chineyeze mailed two letters to me that made me feel like one of the greatest friends in the world. The way he speaks gives me life when i feel like I'm dying from pain and confusion inside. thanks. now back to you. i will never be sorry, but i apologize if i ever make you feel like you are not trying. i understand you situation, but you have to understand mines too, in order for this to work. i have almost everything i want right now. i believe that you would be a great way to start off a new year.
you are my new years resolution


lol look what i got today from this guy at my job.
i think he's serious
and not to mention the girl who tried to spit game at me yesterday
i walk alone.
had ME in tears
and i don't cry off of no tv show


"i see sounds"



Recently, I have been thinking a lot about one particular topic. I need clarification. Why do people want to be hoes and why do other people want to fuck them? [notice the correction] Lol Point blank period. Before I start, let me say that this blog post is not directed towards anyone in particular, although I do believe many of you readers can relate to some of my thoughts.
Blog post inspired by my homies
Hey guys! lol Hoes, sluts, rollers, tramps, skanks, whores, slores…. lol they're all the same thing. They are girls [guys too] who provide a service for their community as well as other communities by sleeping with everyone and anyone. She will give him a sympathy suck and fuck either because someone asked her to, for attention, to ruin someone’s relationship, or she because just simply has the urge to suck and fuck someone she knows. Majority of the time, these people have tormenting childhood memories that they try to cover up by having sexual intercourse with anyone when in reality, they're only making things worse for themselves by creating a negative reputation. “One girl is my jump off, one girl is my wife” –Ray J Now, what I can’t seem to understand is why a guy would want to involve himself with a girl like that? Is it because “she’s a very freaky girl” and she’s easy? Do rollers have a top secret special type of pussy that we “regular" girls aren’t aware of? Lol or are you just desperate enough to fuck tramps because they’re probably the only girls who will "stoop” to your level? And for you cheaters out there, does you girlfriend not satisfy you the way a whore would? Does she not let you, let’s say, tea bag her? Hahahaha! Naw, but man I just don’t get it. What if “says she's 3 months pregnant and she's keepin' it”? Then what? Your baby will be the product of a slut. Ugh! “Suck and Fuck baby”, batteries sold separately like shit. Lls “Just give me a bad hoe and a plate of salmon” -Jadakiss
I mean, most of us have encountered at least one or two moments where we’ve had relations with someone who we weren’t in a relationship with but since this is my blog, i’ll speak for myself. The guy I had relations with was a good friend of mines and we weren’t involved physically or emotionally with anyone else. There are many differences from what I did and what a hoe would do. A hoe would do him and his brother…. in the same day, just in different rooms. She would most likely be fucking more than two guys around the same time just because. Smh. in this crazy woorld! “A lot of hoes give me their numbers but I never call” – Polow Da Don
Okay, fine. Go out and have your little fun. But don’t be a statistic. Be one less, no matter how good she looks. Just because she may appear clean on the outside doesn’t mean she’s all clean and tidy on the inside, dig me? It's the same with girls! Don't go out and have sex with a man whore and expect him to make you his number one. To him, you are no different from the other list of girls he's been with. And dont be surprised if your little sister says she was with him the night prior to your night with him. lol Be independent but don't be selfish. You never know who you can affect when you make such a big decision like fucking a slut. I think people need to stop and think about the longevity of the situation. I mean, consider the factors. The many diseases out here, tormented reputations, one’s self respect, drama, beef, and sometimes death. Why would you want to risk all of those things just for momentary satisfaction? “Stop the violence, increase the peace”. I thought that was the world’s motto? Ron, this is another example of my previous post you couldn’t comprehend, “What if silence was the violence”. If we keep quiet about these issues, it will eventually turn to violence. “Don’t mess wit my man, cause imma be the one to bring it to ya” -Nivea
i hope you enjoyed my thoughts and opinions.
now respond!

To Maintain A Healthy Level of Insanity:

i got this in a email.
i thougt it was pretty funny.
shout outs to my girl Lateshia! lol -At lunch time, sit in your parked car wit sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars... see if they slow down. -Page yourself over the intercom. Don't disguise your voice!
-Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.
-Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks . Once everyone has gotten over their caffeine addictions, switch to espresso.
-In the memo field of all your checks, write "for Marijuana".
-Skip down the hall rather than walk and see how many looks you get.
-Order a diet water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.
-Specify that your drive-through order is 'to go'.
-Sing along at the Opera.
-Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their party because you have a headache.
-When the money comes out the ATM, scream 'I won ! I won!'
-When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot, yelling 'Run for your lives! They're loose!'
-Tell your children over dinner, 'Due to the economy, we are going to have to let one of you go.'
And the final way to keep a healthy level of Insanity....
-Pick up a box of comdoms at the pharmacy, go to the counter, and ask where the fitting rooms are.


the title of this post has NOTHING to do with this post.
i just thought it was funny.
lets laugh a little.
what kind of rumors have you heard about yourself.
perfect [hillarious] definitions found at
i heard i was boojee
Derived from the french word Bourgeois. Refers to a person who acts stuck up.
i heard i was conceited
Excessively high opinion of one's self or ability
and the most recent, i heard i was a fuckin roller!
A hoe or a slut, mostly used in the D.C. are for a girl who is a REAL freak.
i must admit, i was pissed.
so yes.
i told that bitch to pipe the fuck down.
and she did.
she giving me discounts and all.
and for the record.
i am none of the above.
-Droopy the Broke Baller


"it's that little glimpse of light that makes a diamond really shine"