WHAT SHOULD I CALL THIS???

HELLO

my loves.

i miss my blog.

i miss my followers.

and my leaders.

all my friends.

so much.

lol I'm silly.

but um yeah, i got shit to say.

when you stop looking for your keys, you find them. slow down and relax. i need to slow the fuck down and relax. for the past week, i haven't been able to sleep like i normally do. My lack of blogging has been killing me inside. i have so many different things running around in my brain, causing me to have severe headaches. i thought it was my cholesterol bothering me but i was wrong. its me over thinking everything. a shot of liquor won't help me, so let me vent. Please don't devalue my thoughts because they actually mean something to me. they mean a lot to me as they should. I'm sick of wasting my emotions on people who don't care. So care for me like i care for you all.

[now picture me smiling because i don't feel like uploading a picture lol]

Is it wrong to devalue what someone says in order to stop your expectations from changing? I read that somewhere in my favorite author, Eric Jerome Dickey's book "Friends & Lovers". Great book. Now back to the question.

special shout out to my money. yes. MY money. why? because i said so. the little time we spent together was pretty cool. trust me when i say, you were and still are on my A list [which consists of 3 guys]. I cried once from hurt then you turned around and made me cry...... from satisfaction. i want you. still. but i won't show it or confess it again. i didn't want to keep chasing what shouldn't have been running. [sigh] its no fun being a queen living in a kingless castle. thanks for the few memories.

what's the purpose of silent letters? seriously.

He popped the question to me last week. Then she turned around & popped the same question to me today. "Tanae, who's your Valentine?" Well my friends, he didn't go to Jarreds. lls But i went to Ikea. What I'm saying is... my apartment is my Valentine. I hoped to have a lovely Valentine like the man I had last year but, "this ain't Burger King, you can't always have it your way". [hey Dre! lol]