SILENCE.

I think, long ago, someone accidently put an extra letter in a word and called it a “silent letter” as an excuse, as if he put it there on purpose. Lol seriously, I don’t understand the point in complicating a word that could have been spelled so easily.

i.e.

Xerox

Phenomia

that is all.

Restless

Do you like reading more than you like writing?

or

do you like writing more than you like reading?

WHAT SHOULD I CALL THIS???

HELLO

my loves.

i miss my blog.

i miss my followers.

and my leaders.

all my friends.

so much.

lol I'm silly.

but um yeah, i got shit to say.

when you stop looking for your keys, you find them. slow down and relax. i need to slow the fuck down and relax. for the past week, i haven't been able to sleep like i normally do. My lack of blogging has been killing me inside. i have so many different things running around in my brain, causing me to have severe headaches. i thought it was my cholesterol bothering me but i was wrong. its me over thinking everything. a shot of liquor won't help me, so let me vent. Please don't devalue my thoughts because they actually mean something to me. they mean a lot to me as they should. I'm sick of wasting my emotions on people who don't care. So care for me like i care for you all.

[now picture me smiling because i don't feel like uploading a picture lol]

Is it wrong to devalue what someone says in order to stop your expectations from changing? I read that somewhere in my favorite author, Eric Jerome Dickey's book "Friends & Lovers". Great book. Now back to the question.

special shout out to my money. yes. MY money. why? because i said so. the little time we spent together was pretty cool. trust me when i say, you were and still are on my A list [which consists of 3 guys]. I cried once from hurt then you turned around and made me cry...... from satisfaction. i want you. still. but i won't show it or confess it again. i didn't want to keep chasing what shouldn't have been running. [sigh] its no fun being a queen living in a kingless castle. thanks for the few memories.

what's the purpose of silent letters? seriously.

He popped the question to me last week. Then she turned around & popped the same question to me today. "Tanae, who's your Valentine?" Well my friends, he didn't go to Jarreds. lls But i went to Ikea. What I'm saying is... my apartment is my Valentine. I hoped to have a lovely Valentine like the man I had last year but, "this ain't Burger King, you can't always have it your way". [hey Dre! lol]

Word of the Week:

MUSHY!

ugh

$$

AM I WORTH CHANGING FOR? 

WHADDUP THO?

when it comes to life, you are a critical thinker and that's a good thing until you find yourself mentally overwhelmed in a world wind full of unnecessary thoughts and worries. smile. for there will be bigger and brighter opportunities. pay attention to whats in front of your face. you shouldn't continue to let misery ruin your life and take over your character. they say things are easier said than done, and i agree. but, from one friend to another, i promise things will be better. either you live with negativity, or simply get rid of it.

"...i'm too divine, to reliant on my self, no compromising"

xoxo

the best friend...

Tanae

BIRTHDAY GIRL.

this is my cousin

Christian

[and Jazzy beside her]

her 20th birthday celebration at Love

today is the actual bday so...

Happy Birthday!

love you!

[and your custom made dress]

ALTERED DESTINIES

im lost

but i will find my way out

FAVORTIES OF 2008???

List your 2008 favorite....

Album

Website

Pair of Shoes

Movie

Memory

AFTER THE COOKIE CRUMBLES...

hiding the truth is the same as lying

now, exactly why did you lie to me?

did you think i'd stop being friends with you?

did you care about my feelings or were you just trying to be sneaky?

did you think the truth wouldn't have come out?

lol

either way, this whole thing is childish

I AIN'T WORRIED BOUT S***!

no matter what decision WE make regarding this matter

i seriously

from the bottom of my heart

forgive you

A POETIC JOURNEY

is it stupid for me to sometimes wish i had the heart of an asshole? i mean, they seem to find it easy not to care about other peoples feelings. so why should i? why do i have to be the girl who tries her best  to make everyone happy, especially the people she loves the most? why does it feel  as if i ask for too much when majority of the time i don't ask for enough.Although I like material things I only demand one specific thing. Time. Life is not about increasing it's speed or rushing through things.I am more than willing to work with those who do not think they have time to give. i was once a girl who worked her life away. but one day recently, i realized that if i worked too much, i wouldn't be able to live my life. i wouldn't be able to enjoy the better things in life such as  a relationship, something i always mention on my list of desires. so what did i do? i resigned from one of my three jobs for more time. but, as we all know, things do not always go as planned. its like having the perfect rose but no one to bless with it. but instead of a rose, i have my heart to give. Jason Reynolds, last Thursdays feature at Mocha Hut, said "it is our imperfections that turns into blessings". well, I'm

 still waiting on that blessing. be it. I wish i could read your mind so i could know what you're thinking when we kiss, when we talk, when we hug, and when we make love.  i refuse to lower my standards but i am willing to adjust them for you. i will work around your schedule just as long as you promise to treat me how i deserve to be treated. at this point in time, i am confused. how can i be happy and sad at the same time? how can i stop the wind from blowing in the wrong direction? My good friend Chineyeze mailed two letters to me that made me feel like one of the greatest friends in the world. The way he speaks gives me life when i feel like I'm dying from pain and confusion inside. thanks. now back to you. i will never be sorry, but i apologize if i ever make you feel like you are not trying. i understand you situation, but you have to understand mines too, in order for this to work. i have almost everything i want right now. i believe that you would be a great way to start off a new year.

you are my new years resolution

BLABBER BLAH!

lol look what i got today from this guy at my job.

"WHOOOOOOOOLE TIME"

i think he's serious

and not to mention the girl who tried to spit game at me yesterday

sheesh!

i walk alone.

:)

OH MY FUCKING GOSSIP GIRL

had ME in tears

and i don't cry off of no tv show

HEARTBEATS...

[PHOTO TAKEN BY ME]

"i see sounds"

IM DOWN IF YAW DOWN!

THE TRUTH ABOUT CATS & DOGS

Recently, I have been thinking a lot about one particular topic. I need clarification. Why do people want to be hoes and why do other people want to fuck them? [notice the correction] Lol Point blank period. Before I start, let me say that this blog post is not directed towards anyone in particular, although I do believe many of you readers can relate to some of my thoughts.

Blog post inspired by my homies

Avante and Sandra G!

Hey guys! lol Hoes, sluts, rollers, tramps, skanks, whores, slores…. lol they're all the same thing. They are girls [guys too] who provide a service for their community as well as other communities by sleeping with everyone and anyone. She will give him a sympathy suck and fuck either because someone asked her to, for attention, to ruin someone’s relationship, or she because just simply has the urge to suck and fuck someone she knows. Majority of the time, these people have tormenting childhood memories that they try to cover up by having sexual intercourse with anyone when in reality, they're only making things worse for themselves by creating a negative reputation. “One girl is my jump off, one girl is my wife” –Ray J Now, what I can’t seem to understand is why a guy would want to involve himself with a girl like that? Is it because “she’s a very freaky girl” and she’s easy? Do rollers have a top secret special type of pussy that we “regular" girls aren’t aware of? Lol or are you just desperate enough to fuck tramps because they’re probably the only girls who will "stoop” to your level? And for you cheaters out there, does you girlfriend not satisfy you the way a whore would? Does she not let you, let’s say, tea bag her? Hahahaha! Naw, but man I just don’t get it. What if “says she's 3 months pregnant and she's keepin' it”? Then what? Your baby will be the product of a slut. Ugh! “Suck and Fuck baby”, batteries sold separately like shit. Lls “Just give me a bad hoe and a plate of salmon” -Jadakiss

I mean, most of us have encountered at least one or two moments where we’ve had relations with someone who we weren’t in a relationship with but since this is my blog, i’ll speak for myself. The guy I had relations with was a good friend of mines and we weren’t involved physically or emotionally with anyone else. There are many differences from what I did and what a hoe would do. A hoe would do him and his brother…. in the same day, just in different rooms. She would most likely be fucking more than two guys around the same time just because. Smh. in this crazy woorld! “A lot of hoes give me their numbers but I never call” – Polow Da Don

Okay, fine. Go out and have your little fun. But don’t be a statistic. Be one less, no matter how good she looks. Just because she may appear clean on the outside doesn’t mean she’s all clean and tidy on the inside, dig me? It's the same with girls! Don't go out and have sex with a man whore and expect him to make you his number one. To him, you are no different from the other list of girls he's been with. And dont be surprised if your little sister says she was with him the night prior to your night with him. lol Be independent but don't be selfish. You never know who you can affect when you make such a big decision like fucking a slut. I think people need to stop and think about the longevity of the situation. I mean, consider the factors. The many diseases out here, tormented reputations, one’s self respect, drama, beef, and sometimes death. Why would you want to risk all of those things just for momentary satisfaction? “Stop the violence, increase the peace”. I thought that was the world’s motto? Ron, this is another example of my previous post you couldn’t comprehend, “What if silence was the violence”. If we keep quiet about these issues, it will eventually turn to violence. “Don’t mess wit my man, cause imma be the one to bring it to ya” -Nivea

i hope you enjoyed my thoughts and opinions.

now respond!

To Maintain A Healthy Level of Insanity:

i got this in a email.

i thougt it was pretty funny.

shout outs to my girl Lateshia! lol -At lunch time, sit in your parked car wit sunglasses on and point a hair dryer at passing cars... see if they slow down. -Page yourself over the intercom. Don't disguise your voice!

-Every time someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.

-Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks . Once everyone has gotten over their caffeine addictions, switch to espresso.

-In the memo field of all your checks, write "for Marijuana".

-Skip down the hall rather than walk and see how many looks you get.

-Order a diet water whenever you go out to eat, with a serious face.

-Specify that your drive-through order is 'to go'.

-Sing along at the Opera.

-Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their party because you have a headache.

-When the money comes out the ATM, scream 'I won ! I won!'

-When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot, yelling 'Run for your lives! They're loose!'

-Tell your children over dinner, 'Due to the economy, we are going to have to let one of you go.'

And the final way to keep a healthy level of Insanity....

-Pick up a box of comdoms at the pharmacy, go to the counter, and ask where the fitting rooms are.

LMFAO!

GET YOUR LIPS WET.

haha.

the title of this post has NOTHING to do with this post.

lol

i just thought it was funny.

OMG

lets laugh a little.

what kind of rumors have you heard about yourself.

perfect [hillarious] definitions found at

www.urbandictionary.com

i heard i was boojee

Derived from the french word Bourgeois. Refers to a person who acts stuck up.

i heard i was conceited

Excessively high opinion of one's self or ability

and the most recent, i heard i was a fuckin roller!

A hoe or a slut, mostly used in the D.C. are for a girl who is a REAL freak.

LMFAOOOOOOOOOOO!

i must admit, i was pissed.

so yes.

i told that bitch to pipe the fuck down.

and she did.

she giving me discounts and all.

ha!

and for the record.

i am none of the above.

"WHO I AM DEPENDS ON WHO YOU ASK!"

-Droopy the Broke Baller

BLING! BLING!

"it's that little glimpse of light that makes a diamond really shine"

PINK

you see me right?

this is me. happy...

i compete for no one.

not even you.

DON'T MESS THIS UP.

WHAT IF????

Blogspot becomes the new myspace???

just a thought...

FRIENDSHIP.

Sandra this picture means a lot to me.

thanks.. i love you!

[photo credit to Sandra G.]

i swear, blood couldn't make us any closer.

check out her blog:

http://www.push-pen.logspot.com/

THIS IS FOR MY LADIES!

Someone will always be prettier. Someone will always be smarter.

fuck that! let it go! love you and your circumstances.

Think about it...

the prettiest woman can actually have hell in her heart.

the most popular woman may be unable to have children.

the richest woman you know might be lonely as a muthafucka.

[please excuse my language]

love who you are

I am too Blessed to be Stressed

and

too Anointed to be Disappointed!!

EASE ON DOWN THE ROAD...

"How do you continue going up hill when you're scared stuck in that one spot because of previous accidents. Do you brainstorm different routes? Do you turn around and just give up?Or do you overcome your fears independetly? "

I answered my own question on Saturday yet its still hard for me to follow. don't you hate that shit. you know what you should do but you can't seem to do it right then and there. ugh! i have been so eager to go there all summer and now that i finally have the opportunity to, im scared to go. i keep thinking "what if?" at some point in time, everyone wonders "what if'... but to what extent? where is the breaking point when you just say fuck it!?!? i am putting an excessive amount of thought into this when actually, little thought is necessary. i just want to be happy. plain and simple. and if going to, lets say Haawii [hehe], makes me happy, then im going to fucking go.

the end.

19.5.1.14

 money is my ambition.

"if your heart is open, love will find its way in..."

NO TITLE

so i was browsing blogs

on this sicky ass day when i came across this post.

http://mynameisgtwo.blogspot.com/2008/11/racism-in-elevator.html

funny as shit. the highlight of my day.