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TELL ME HE DIDN'T KILL THIS
if you don't have anything nice to say don't comment at all
thank you.
this post was borrowed from Gabby's blog
GRIND TIME
Monday I start my new job at
The Library of Congress as a Librarian Technician.
I also work at Up Against the Wall again starting Monday
The days I don't work at Up Against the Wall,
I'll be at the law firm training people
which means, i got 3 jobs
shit man.
will I have a social life???
fuck yes.
VINDICATION
okay so those little things are getting to me.
i have been emotional.
i see what you mean when you say
im nice one minute, goofy another, then im mean
"a bitch"
as for my proposition regarding this matter:
>>please don't shoot me down<<
i will absolve you for almost whatever actions
so
forgive me if i have been acting
"extra"
forgive me if i have been
"mean"
thats not who i am and i fancy you will see that
everyone has a breaking point
& everyone has "those days"
or in my case those weeks.
lol
pardon me
i am responsible for my own actions
so i wont blame him, her, or that
bye.
GOOGLE SEARCH: quotes
"People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges"
"Forgiveness means that you've decided not to let it keep festering inside of you"
"Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong. The weak can never forgive"
"Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you"
THE FUTURE IS HERE
"Could they be the new faces of Hip-Hop???"
I have been listening to Asher Roth & Charles Hamilton a lot.
they are the bomb!
Now, imma check out Mickey Factz.
BLANK
I listen to...
Amy Winehouse
Ledisi
Murs
Lilly Allen
Cody hestnutt
Lupe Fiasco
Shwayze
Young Jeezy
N.E.R.D.
Ryan Leslie
Christina A.
Charles Hamilton
Kanye West
Pharrell
Neyo
T.I.
Janelle Monae
Colbie Caillat
Gwen Stefani
Lloyd
Beyonce
Aaradhna
Natashia Bedingfield
Justin Nozuka
Lil Wayne
Corrine Bailey Rae
Kirk Franklyn
Estelle
Jay Z
Chrisette Michelle
Danity Kane
Nina Sky
Dorothy Dandridge
Rihanna
Musiq
I just started listening to...
Asher Roth
Solange
M.I.A.
Minus the Bear
good day.
YOU KNOW HOW THEY DO!
ON THE TRAIN
my ipod is in my ears and im not looking at anyone yet becasue i accidently made brief eye contact with the go go guy sitting accross from me, he makes his move feeling confident that the "look" i gave him mean't "hey baby. im single".
AT THE CLUB
the guy freaking the three skeets behind me slams his penis onto my butt cheeks while wrapping hands around my waist. i guess that was his way of saying "you gonna come home with me tonight along with them skeets behind me?" without sayin anything at all.
IN THE MALL
the dude with the too big high top dunks and skinny skinnier skinniest skinny jeans walks right beside me as if we are "together". when i finally decided to be nice and acknowledge his unwanted presence, he looks me up and down, and says "how you doin sweetheart?". then licks his lips. twice.ADDING TO THE WHITE RING.
AT WORK
the UPS, FED Ex, and DHL men are all in their mid 30s, i suppose. They deliver at my office around the same time in the same order three times a week. Which means, I either get a "Hey lil lady, you are so pretty", a "Can I take out out to lunch sometime?", a "Where is your boyfriend?", and/or a "While your signing your name, write you number down with that".
these are NOT ways to approach a lady.
its nice that you try.. but its not worth trying like this.
so lets get it together guys.
LMFAO!
guys, humor me with the ways ladies approach you...
SO THERE WAS A PARK...
Jaime Aquino had a photoshoot with Sandras brother... at a MoCo park. lol. i almost forgot how fun and relaxing parks are....
i took these with me camera phone. the sight was amazing...
Oh! and Aya was home!!!
p.s. i sent you some mail sir.
CONSERVATIVE LITTLE LADY
HELLO GUYS.
i am cautiously moderate at times.
i like the traditional ways of doing things.
i have self respect. speaking of self respect...
i wonder who named that dance "pop the coochie".. and i wonder why.
these comments are so off subject but...
there was a time in my life where i kissed a girl... and i DID NOT like it.
i miss some old friendships. i miss.you. my friend.
i met a guy Saturday. and man oh man! thanks Sandra.
i fucking love cranberry muffins with a organic pomegranate juice.
i have 125mins to use in the next 4days since verizon doesn't have rollover.
SEXY BACK???
call me crazy but...
i would so get this shit done...
its a pretty bold move....
but i could do it.
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now this shit...
NOT COOL. JUST STUPID.
TIL THE SUN COMES OUT.....
im getting sick of all this talk about "love". i love to be loved but... is it even real anymore? think about it. for most of us, it seems that the ones who you want love from the most, gives it to you the least. and when they do give in, most of the time, the love is untrue and impossible to grip. i know we all grow and things don't always stay the same but what in gods name happened to the old fashioned way of making things work? not only am i referring to intimate relationships, im also referring to friendships. is it that damn hard to stay committed? is it that damn hard to be sincere and let someone know whats concrete and whats not?
these are my thoughts.
p.s.
"love may be absent from life for some, but happiness will never be, because only you can truly make yourself happy"
REP YOUR STANCE!
i claim a stance in non violence and peace
"i am not a fighter but i will defend myself at all times"
i claim a stance in love and happiness
"i adore being happy and making others happy"
i claim a stance education and awareness
"intelligence is pure excellence, ignorance is unacceptable"
i claim a stance trust and honesty
"friendship is honest and true"
SHE MADE ME THINK...
is life measured by the people we love?
or by our accomplishments?
what if we fail?
and what if we are never truly loved?
what then?
will we ever measure up?
xoxo
GOSSIP GIRL
LET'S TALK
if "love" is a powerful word, how powerful is "like"?
smh...
it's pretty fucking powerful.
careful how you use it.
anywho...
i had a fair weekend.
minus Saturday night.
[not so fun]
no more drinking. for a long time.
"your good deeds erases you bad deeds"
even if your good deeds are for yourself.
today marks 36 days.
im not counting on purpose..
i just remember dates well
=)
"intelligence is pure excellence"
THE PLANS.
so
i have an interview at the Library of Congress tomorrow
i have to pretend to be sick at work today
so i can have a good excuse as to why i will be late tomorrow
do i look sick enough....?
on a different subject
that asshole asked me for money for Friday
i told her no because she needs to learn how to save her money
and do you know what she did?
she stole it from me
i noticed money missing from my lil piggy bank joint this morning
bills, not change
how did i respond you ask?
no i didn't rip up any of her shit
or pour bleach on it like i normally would [yes it gets that serious]
but...
well, let's just say
i'm the ONLY person who has the key to that lock on our door
goog day.
LIONS & TIGERS & BEARS...
OH MY!
this song is something serious.
by Jazmine Sullivan
read the lyrics....
I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears, oh my
But I'm scared of loving you
I'm not scared to perform at a sold out affair, that's right
But I'm scared of loving you
Am I the only one who thinks an impossible task?
Why it don't last? Is that too much to ask?
Why do we love Love, when Love seems to hate us?
Sorry if I sound so filled with gloom
You say you care and I know you do
But this is from my experience
And my conclusion only makes sense
Just cause I love u and u love me,
It doesn't mean that that we're meant to be,
I can climb mountains, swim cross the seas,
But the most frightening thing is you & me!
Most circumstances I know my fate
But in this love thing I don't get the game
Why does it feel like those who give in,
They only wind up losing a friend?
Just cause I love u and u love me,
It doesn't mean that that we'll ever be,
Fly cross the ocean, sing for the Queen,
But the most frightening thing is you & me!
I'm not sure no, I'm not sure
But if we never try we'll never know
It's better to have loved than not to love at all
But trying is worst than to stumble and fall
And if what we do? I'd rather it be with you
Cause at least there will be Sweet memories
DRIVEN..
My desire is to succeed...
thoughts of future engagements weigh heavily on my mind
day and night.
it's a tad bit hard to sleep.
i am so inspired so I must focus.
no room for stress right now and certianly no room for games.
i am driven by words spoken.
so i must work hard and get things accompolished.
................
by the way
have you noticed the sky lately...
[taken with my cell phone. lol]
PRODIGIOUS!
I am currently in the process of planning my first event.
I am so excited.
Things have been going stupendous for me lately.
no drama, no tears, no failures
jeeez.
prayer works.
as much as im loving this path to happiness..
i find myself missing a few things.
like....
those early morning text messages
random?
i know. but i really do miss those. lol
BYE
P.S.
Why do things have to be so inelegant between people when someones intentions towards them have been misconstrued? Is it really that serious to loose ALL contact?
My mind ponders.
